Arrangements

I'm leaving for Chicago already tonight! But today should be fun! Probably chillin with Tyler... Caribou (cariboozin it up!) and maybe some walks....
then he's taking me to Tower City at 5:30 and seeing me go off...
but no fear! I'll be home again in 10 days! For Thanksgiving break! That's almost a week long so much more satisfying! But I really needed a break from school and all that.

I love my boyfriend though. I know he's the only one for me. <3 He loves me no matter what weight I am. And I'm so happy with myself, my body, and my mind when I am with him.

Last night was fun. We went out for dinner at a nice Chinese restaurant. So of course bad food there. I mean GOOD food, but bad for me.

My mom was all pissy because I didn't visit her as much as she would have liked. Well, she's sick and I really can't afford to get sick right now (I have a LOT of stuff to get done this coming week).

It's a beautiful day!

Hello hello!

It's so great being home and away from all the stress of college! I mean, I'm only home today and tomorrow and I leave tomorrow night... but it's seriously wonderful being 300 miles away from bitchy residents.
Seriously.... Wednesday night 1 am I got a prank knock knock knock on the door! When I opened the door, the resident was gone and I tried catching her to see who it was but all I could tell was she was blonde. She woke me up out of a deep sleep! There's one girl who's blonde and might do something like that. I was so frustrated and upset that I waited until they were loud again and wrote them all up. I've never written anyone up on my floor before! It was hard to do but I am going to start doing it more often because they are taking advantage of me and my lenient views on quiet hours. I got an apology e-mail from one of the girls, so that made it a little better...but still.

I missed my baby Tyler soo much! He is my one and only love and I'll love him forever! It sounds so cheesy but it's true! I love laying next to him and just smelling how good he smells and touching his wavy hair and kissing him. Ahh!

I took a walk today with my doggy Lilly. I also took a walk earlier this morning with Tyler. It's such a nice day out! I love just walking quietly and smelling the autumn air. It's been a great autumn! No frost here! (yet). It's coming though. I just hate how there's Christmas decorations out already.

As for the rest of the day, I think Tyler and I will be going to Target maybe... watching a movie. Making out. haha I mean what?!

I've eaten really bad todayyyy... but it's okay! It will all be good. I'm still surprisingly 109 lbs! Hopefully I don't gain anymore though! My goal is to maintain between 106-112 lbs. throughout the holidays. I think that is definitely feasible. I just really want to be healthy though.. and I haven't been healthy. It's either too much or too little. I wish I could afford a nutritionist to tell me what I need to eat and what is just not good. For example, I know I shouldn't drink coffee but  I do ALL the time! It's seriously my addiction and without it I am a big bitch who can't focus. I am also addicted to sugar and chocolate. So bad. And it doesn't help that Tyler got me a "pot of gold" box of chocolates from Hershey! Sooo good! I've had eight today!

Bad news... my mommy is sick! Good news.... my parents have been working on cleaning the house and making it look really nice. It looks GREAT! Wow! I couldn't believe how great the dining room and living room looked!

Breakfast:
2 bowls of corn chex
with 1% milk

Snack:
1 medium mocha from caribou
8 chocolates

Lunch:
1 package of ramen noodles with only a LITTLE TINY bit of seasoning
1 special K bar

Dinner:
TBA

Water:
40+ oz.

Exercise:
3 mile walk
100+ crunches

Get on the bus that takes me to you

Hey! I am going home today! I need a much needed break from my fucking unappreciative bitch residents.... oops. Did I say that? Oh yeah! I did... damn I hate being a RA.

I have an ethics exam due today. It was take-home. I desperately need to get a good grade on it because I am doing horrible in that class.

I am going to try to eat healthy while I'm at home for these next two days (Friday and Saturday)... but no guarantees! My mom is an excellent cook. Except she's not feeling good... aw.

I can't wait to see my baby Tyler though!

To do: November 12th, 2009
-wake up at 7:00
-shower
-go to spanish  class
-vacuum, take out trash, clean out fridge
-pack
-go to ethics
-go to politics
-come back to my room
-leave to go on megabus
-megabus 3:15
-arrive cleveland at 11:00

Breakfast:
1 cup oatmeal
1 piece toast
with peanut butter
1 med. pancake with syrup

Lunch: planned
21 oz. smoothie

Dinner: planned
a sandwich?

Water:
40+ oz.

Exercise: planned
100+ crunches
walking a LOT
up and down 28 flights of stairs

The Drugs Don't Work

Hey... I had such a horrible day yesterday. I drank coffee for the first time in 9 days. It didn't even make me feel better/energized. It made me sluggish and depressed and I couldn't function properly. I seriously almost went to the wellness center but they make you wear a mask because of this stupid swine flu epidemic craze. I didn't want to wear a mask. I didn't feel like myself.. and the only thing that I thought would make me feel better was food. I ate so much. But  I did eat healthier than what my brain/stomach craved. I wanted doughnuts and ice cream but instead I had peanut butter and granola... much healthier choices. But I did cave and have one high calorie cookie. Oh well. I burned 750 calories on the treadmill running 6.5 miles in an hour. So that made me feel better!

Today is busy busy! Tomorrow I go home so I must prepare!

To do:
-wake up at 6:30
-work out
-shower
-hang up birthday sign for resident
-commute downtown
-go to interviewing
-go to photo, print photos
-laundry
-RA class
-fold/put away laundry
-work on ethics exam (DUE TOMORROW!)
-buy cookies (for floor program)
-survey/cookie exchange program
-pack a little bit

Breakfast:
1 banana (80)
1/2 cup granola (240) (3 g. fat) (160 mg. sodium)
with 1/2 cup skim milk (40) (0 g. fat) (55 mg. sodium)

Lunch:
1 odwalla bar (210) (5 g. fat) (75 mg. sodium)
1 packet of peanuts (170) (15 g. fat) (115 mg. sodium
21 oz. strawberry pineapple smoothie (340) (.5 g. fat) (170 mg. sodium)

Snack:
1 cup hot chocolate (200) (2.5 g. fat) (280 mg. sodium)
1 apple (55)

Dinner:
1 serving salad (75)
with 1 tbsp. french dressing (25) (1 g. fat) (125 mg. sodium)

Water:
40+ oz.

Exercise:
100+ crunches
up and down 14 flights of stairs
30 mins. on treadmill (-400)

Total: 1435- 400 = 1035 calories, 27 g. fat, and 980 mg. sodium

Don't be a fool: Twosday

Hey hey! Two days until I head home! Yayyyy!!!

My film turned out really great.. unlike the girl I shared a film canister with. Hers turned out completely purple and cloudy. .Sucks but it's her fault for not loading the film properly.

Tyler FINALLY switched his major! He was computer engineering but he kept struggling with it. So he switched the English with a creative writing minor. Yay!

Lots to do: November 10th, 2009
-wake up at 7:00
-go to Spanish class
-go to ethics class
-go to politics class
-go to soup kitchen from 4-6
-work on ethics take home exam

FUCKING A! I totally fucking screwed up so bad today!

Breakfast:
1 banana (80)
1 strawberry raspberry smoothie with skim (150) (0 g. fat) (110 mg. sodium)
1 nature valley bar (140) (3.5 g. fat) (95 mg. sodium)

Lunch:
1 odwalla bar (210) (5 g. fat) (105 mg. sodium)
1 serving scrambled eggs with mushrooms, green peppers and turkey sausage (266) (18 g. fat) (377 mg. sodium)
a little bit of sweet and sour tofu (103) (6 g. fat) (40 mg. sodium)

Snack:
1 grande mocha from starbucks, skim and light whip (290) (6 g. fat) (135 mg. sodium)
1 apple (55)

Dinner:
1 piece wheat toast (70) (1 g. fat) (134 mg. sodium)
with 1.5 tbsp. peanut butter (150) (12 g. fat) (120 mg. sodium)
2 cups granola (426) (6 g. fat) (268 mg. sodium)
with 1 cup skim milk (80) (0 g. fat) (110 mg. sodium)
1 cookie (194) (11 g. fat) (160 mg. sodium)

Water:
40+ oz

Exercise:
100+ crunches
up and down 28 flights of stairs
1 hour on treadmill (-750 calories)

Total: 2159-750= 1409 calories, 68.5 g. fat, and 1654 mg. sodium

FUCK MY LIFE I AM EXERCISING RIGHT NOW THIS IS NO EXCUSE SICKKKKKKKKKK

*edit*
Alright.. that's a little better.... still disgusting.